Sometimes I have to remind myself that I’m no longer your news, and you’re no longer mine. But I can’t help but check up on you. I know we’re much happier apart but some days I wonder what it’d be like to talk to each other again. You have your friends and I have mine, but I can’t seem to forget that we were the best of friends at one point. Maybe we’ll meet in another life time. We were young and naive…only had our eyes on each other. I didn’t think there would be a day that I’d meet someone else who isn’t you.
Something my ex said to me a long time ago:
I used to think to myself every night… “Another day tomorrow.”
I used to think to myself every morning… “Let’s get this day over with.”
Now every morning I think, “Yes, another day.”
And by the end of the day, I wouldn’t be thinking to myself… I would be thinking about you.
I dreamed about my ex today. It was weird. I know I have been thinking about him but it was weird to see him in my dreams. In my dream, he came over to my parent’s house for a party. I was excited to see him. I thought he was going to be the only one who was coming but when I saw him, he brought his friends along as well. I was confused. I forgot much of it but he left expectantly and I was sad all of a sudden.
Whenever I have these dreams, I don’t know what to think of it. Does it mean I miss him? Or does it have another meaning?
Anyways, lately I’ve been thinking way too much. I think I’m just unhappy with where I am in life right now.