Constant Reminder

I feel like I’m always going back and forth on my feelings for you. One day I miss you and the next day I’ll hate you. And I’d think about what we were and what we could’ve been but I realized that I really need to stop thinking about you. That I have to allow myself to break away from you. And with social media, it’s easier than ever to check up on you and see how you’re doing. I should really stop…

But I can’t. And I don’t know why. And when we talked again, it felt really nice. I just didn’t want to stop talking. But I know that we should because whenever we do, it makes me feel like we haven’t moved on but we did… right? … I’m not sure how you feel. And yes, maybe you’ve moved on. I would like to say that I did too but I don’t know. Although we did stop talking for a few years, it felt like it was just yesterday that we were talking. I still remember your voice. It vibrates through me whenever I read your texts. I can just imagine it.

I don’t want to admit it but I feel like I’m still stuck on you. And I hate myself for it. But you know, I’m glad that you’ve found somebody you love. I’m happy for you. That’s why we should stop talking. Because I don’t want to be constantly reminded of your love for me. I don’t want to fall back in love with you.

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